Relationship Survey

25 Relationship Questions:

1) Single, Crushin', Interested, or in a Relationship? Interested

2) Are you happy with where you are? Could be better :)

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast? I think the right person is more of a gradual fall.

4) Have you ever had your heart broken? Yes

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable? Nope

6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? No way because they would probably cheat again.

7) Have you talked about marriage with another person? Yes I have, but our relationship fell apart soon after.

8) Do you want children? Undecided

10) Would you consider adoption? Maybe

11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think a cool way to let you know would be? A cute letter or just tell me straight out that they like me.

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get? I can play hard to get and yes I enjoy it.

13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating? Hell no, that shit is ignorant to the person you are dating

14) Do you believe love at first sight exists? Yes, I wouldn't be in existance if I didn't believe.

15) Are you a romantic? Yes

16) Do you believe that you can change someone? Yes, if they are willing to change. Sometimes people just need a little guidance in life to change.

17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object? Doesn't really matter to me

18) Sex buddies - good or bad? Bad.. People catch feelings

19) Do you easily give in when you are fighting? Depends on what we are fighting about.

20) Do you have feelings for someone right now, whether they know it or not? Yes and she knows it.

21) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you messed that up? I've never messed anything up lol. My whole love life sucks.

22.) Have you broken a heart? Yes

23.)What would happen if you came and found another person in bed with ur girl/boy? Walk away

24.) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other? Sure, I'm very protective

25.)What would you say about your last ex? She was great before her change, but after her change, she was horrible.

My Date, My Tire, My Car

So I didn't get my date for the night. Some things came up and she wasn't able to go out. I don't think we'll be meeting up either. Our conversations are soo.. I dunno, boring? We just don't click very well. I guess she is having some issues in her life right now. I honestly wish her luck with that. I always have the crappy luck lol. Ohh well.

Anyways, my internet is down and I feel like making a post, so notepad is allowing me to do this. I got my tire fixed today since I actually didn't have to work. It suprisingly didn't take me very long to get my tire fixed. Though I noticed that my rim has a nice little chip in it now. I guess that curb really ate my rim. Damn curbs!!!



After the tire place I decided to head over to the Colonial Park Mall. I was looking for a pair of headphones like I got for my brother for Christmas. They are Sonys and have a really crispy clear sound to them. I looked at the only music store in there and they didn't carry them.

When I was in the music store I wondered what kind of techno music they have there. I was thinking about buying the new Dieselboy and the new Tech Itch. I mosied on over to the electronic section and was extremely dissappointed. There was one little section of electronic music. I browsed for the NEW Dieselboy and found nothing there. Ugh.. I wanted to actually purchase this CD since I liked it (downloaded it online).

I look around and see 3 rows of rap music, 1 row of rock music and 3 sections of classical music and here I am staring at the smallest section of them all. It almost looks like they are trying to faze that section out. I figured since I was in Harrisburg they would have a better selection of music compared to Lancaster. I don't think I will be returning to that music store ever again.

I ended up leaving the mall empty handed and headed home. I cruised around on my 2.99 a gallon gas, then thought maybe I shouldn't be wasting all this gas and returned home. It cost me 35 dollars just to fill my tank today. I felt like I was filling up a gas guzzling SUV or something. It wasn't long ago that 20 bucks filled my tank. Ugh, I hope gas prices crash soon. This is getting to be too damn much. Luckily I don't drive much anymore and I get 30mpg when I do drive or I would be even more upset. Soon we'll have to finance a loan just to fill up our tanks lol.

Ok, internet is back up, so I'll copy and paste this now.

A Loss

Before I begin this post, I'd just like to say RIP Jeff. Everytime I hung out around Jeff he was nothing but nice to me. I've always known him as Alicias brother. He'd always tell Alicia to have me over so he can get stoned with me. I rarely smoke weed, but one time I did give in and caught a buzz with him. I'm truely sad by what happened and I hope the best for Alicia and her family.

Well, this weekend I didn't go out. I stayed home and commented on this site with Megan. We finally broke down and messaged each other on tuesday. It's GREAT hearing from her again. I don't know how else I feel about that right now though. I have many mixed emotions about that.

I talked to Christina tonight for alittle bit. I was telling her pretty much everything that was on my mind. Yanno, sometimes I wish people would listen to me like I do for them. I always find myself neglected whenever I tell anyone anything. There are people out there I refuse to talk to seriously because it's in one ear and out the other. Sometimes I just need a good listener and advice giver, but I can't exactly talk to myself :p. Sometimes I just need an outside perspective on things. So Christina, if you are reading this, I'd just like to say thanks for listening :). You rock!

PS) Don't read the time I posted this entry. I'll get yelled at :p.

The Story

Ok, I'm sure I have a few peoples attention at the moment *waves*. I never really wanted to stop talking to Megan. In fact, I wanted the opposite. I was really close to her. Not a day went by that we didn't talk for hours. We'd talk about everything under the sun, from downright silly things to something more on the serious side. We'd play games, talk on the pc/phone and I let her into my life. We clicked so well. I guess you could say I really liked her, but she didn't feel that way about me. In the end I felt it was best that we stop talking. I was hurt and I didn't want to keep hurting.

I know, that sounds very selfish. I guess I can be selfish at times. We all can be. It's all part of being human I guess. I wish I wasn't that way.

I stuck up for her, I cared for her and most of all, I loved her. Call me crazy, but that's just how I felt.

Currently Playing: RJD2 - Making Days Longer

A Story..

A white woman, about 50 years old, was seated next to a black man. Obviously disturbed by this, she called the air hostess. "Madam, what is the matter," the hostess asked. "You obviously do not see it then?" she responded. "You placed me next to a black man. I do not agree to sit next to someone from such a repugnant group. Give me an alternative seat."

"Be calm please," the hostess replied. "Almost all the places on this flight are taken. I will go to see if another place is available." The Hostess went away and then came back a few minutes later.

"Madam, just as I thought, there are no other available seats in the economy class. I spoke to the captain and he informed me that there is also no seat in the business class. All the same, we still have one place in the first class."

Before the woman could say anything, the hostess continued, "It is not usual for our company to permit someone from the economy class to sit in the first class. However, given the circumstances, the captain feels that it would be scandalous to make someone sit next to someone so disgusting."

She turned to the black man and said "Therefore, Sir, if you would like to, please collect your hand luggage, a seat awaits you in first class." At that moment, the other passengers who were shocked by what they had just witnessed stood up and applauded.

The Broken Phones

I broke this phone in a fit of rage over a certain girl. It was my very first personal cell phone. It was however, extremely outdated when I got it, but I liked it. It was short, simple and worked all the time (before it met the power of my arm and concrete).




This was the phone I bought to replace the rage phone. I shelled out a good 300 dollars for this dinky model. I liked it since my brother had one too. Well, this one has seen better days. It doesn't like going to work with me and cracked under the pressure. Alot of good times were had with this phone, but its time has now passed.



I just ordered this one from the verizon website. It's new, it's hip, it plays music AND it takes pictures. I hope this one doesn't have as short of a lifespan as my other ones did. These things can get rather expensive if you have my luck.

Why am I posting about cell phones? I have no freaking idea, but I figured it would be something to talk about since Megan and myself were talking about it over on the flooble, er whatever it's called :p.

The Dr is Dead

A mix I put together. I felt inspired to make some music this morning after sleeping for 14 hours straight. I worked for 11 hours on Saturday with no sleep, so I pretty much crashed and burned when I got home.

Anyways, here it is...

Liqwid Dr. - The Dr. is Dead (Drum and Bass)

Once you click that link, you need to wait 30 seconds before another link will appear to download it.

It's one of my better ones and I'm pretty satisfied with it. It's a dark mix with alot of emotion in it. I guess it's just how I've been feeling lately. I'm overworked, heartbroken, lost, alone and some days, just down-right depressed.

I don't know if anyone really knows that. I tend to keep my feelings to myself anymore. I try to put on a happy face and pretend everything is ok, but I'm stuck with all these crappy emotions that I've had bottled up for a few months now.

I know I put down on stupid survey's and the like that I don't miss anyone, but truth be told, I do. I was searching through old blog posts the other day, just reading comments between me and her. She always had a way to brighten my day. I don't have that anymore and I do miss her.

My music has always reflected how I feel. Just the other day Erica said something to me about my music always being "scary" on my Myspace page, so I switched it to something alittle more upbeat.

Anyways, my mix is up there, if you wanna listen. It takes awhile for me to really get goin on it. It took me about 5 tries to get something going that I like (Yea, I can be a perfectionist when it comes to certain things).

Enjoy my mix. I worked pretty hard on it. I still suck though :p.

Happy Birthday Matt

Happy Birthday Matt! You're not only my lil' brother, but you are my best friend too. I love you bro.

Just A Bookmark

Tech Itch/Limewax - Therapy Sessions - Russia

Just bookmarking this here for later retrevial, since my Bookmarks folder is a bit crowded and I don't wanna forget about it. If you download it, prepare for a 556mb file :p.

Clicky!!

Lap Dance

I decided to test my luck and go out again this weekend. We just went to the pool hall, shot some pool and had a few drinks.

As I was shooting pool there was some girl dancing around like crazy. It was obvious she was really drunk or on something. We all sort of watched her as she danced up and down the middle of the pool room and into the bar area.

I'm just sitting there between shots and it appears that this hyper girl is getting kicked out. She walks past me, looks at me and says "ooooo" then starts giving me a lapdance right in front of this bouncer guy. Some other guy was standing there, waiting for her, so I just laughed. Erica said something like "He's single" to her, but I am not about to get with a girl who doesn't know her left shoe from her right, so I sorta nudged Erica and shook my head no.

Let's rewind alittle bit though. Now, I saw this girl all over the place and assumed she wasn't there with anyone. This one big guy with a huge beer belly was trying to get all over her, but she kept dissing him and pulling away from him. When she was leaving I saw him hustling her out the door. At first, I thought that maybe they were there together and were just having some fun, but then I started thinking that maybe that asshole was just taking advantage of a situation. If that's the case, then I feel truely sick and that guy is scum.

I don't know about you, but I could never do that to a girl who is in that state of mind. I just feel it is morally wrong to use someone like that. Erica and Chris both said I should have "gone for it". I just looked at the both of them and shook my head in disgust.

I guess I am just assuming too much with that whole situation, but I thought it would be something I'd comment on.

Another thing that pissed me off this weekend. I get there, sit down and didn't even have my jacket off when Joni asks me why I even came out. I just look at her like "what the hell" and preceded talking with Eric like I was before she interupted me. About 10 minutes go by and I'm in the middle of a game of pool and Joni turns to me and asks if I am drinking. I told her I'm not sure if I'm drinking tonight. Now get this, she looks at me and says, "Why are you even at a bar? You should have just stayed home." I sort of got smart with her and said "Yea, maybe its a bad idea for me to hang out with my friends. We should all probably just go home now." She didn't say anything after that comment.

Yanno, that seriously pissed me off. I've known everyone else that was there for a much longer time and here she's telling me I shouldn't be out having a good time with them. You don't need to drink to have a good time. I think that's something you learn in High School. I did break in and have a beer after I was done shooting pool, but man, that comment had me pissed off. I'm not a social drunk, I'm a social drinker.


Me, Matt and Eric at the pool hall. Gotta love how my brother sticks the pool stick in my face lol.

Figures

Well, this weekend I decided to lay low and not go out. I figured it was best that I relax at home and not have anymore bad luck. Well, it turns out I got sick this weekend. Yea, it wasn't pretty, so I ended up sleeping all weekend. I think I have that stomach virus that's going around or something.

I need to find a good strategy game or something single player, so I don't bore myself to death when I'm home. I'm hoping to get a hold of a copy of a book called American Theocracy. I need some good reading material and this book sounds like something I'd be interested in reading. My brother just bought it at Borders, but I'm not going to wait over a year till he's done reading it. I think sometime this week I'll head over to the bookstore and find some things I'd be interested in reading. I have a ton of PC Tech/Programming books, but they don't interest me so much anymore.

Anyways, that was my boring weekend. Nothing really exciting to report here.